#i mean this in the NICEST way possible but i'm gonna cry

[james-is-here]

Hybrid Chan, who use to belong to your parents, when you take him to go run in the open and you just stay on the dirt "Parking Lot", more of a dirt patch, and he looks at you worriedly with a head tilt.

"I am not following you. Go run." You both care and don't care about hybrids. You see them as humans and you see them as animals. Chan Whines and snaps his jaw at you with a small huff of what you think is a bark. "No." He trots up to you, gently taking your sleeve between his teeth and pulling. "Would you stop!" You snap and pull your arm away from him and he whimpers. "Just go on your stupid run before I leave you here." You wouldn't actually, you can't do that to your mom. You were only doing this for her since she's in the hospital and it's been a few days since he was able to run more than the backyard.

Chan whimpers, sniffing you hand when it falls back to your side before looking up at you with his sad wolf eyes then turning and running further out in the field.

You huff, sitting on the broken, dirty parking block that lines the start of the field as you watch him run around, stopping to smell the ground then returning back to running around. You pull out your phone after half an hour of watching the wolf when it rang.

"Ln Mn?" "Yes, this is him." "Hi, Mn, this is Josie, your mother's nurse." "O-Oh, Is everything okay?" "I'm sorry, Mn..." "W-What..." You didn't want to ask, you knew what she was going to say next, you just didn't want to hear it. "Um, She's gone, Dear. I'm really sorry. She coded and we tried everything possible but...She's gone..." You could hear that she was trying to hold back tears, She's been looking after your mother for years now. "No...No, Josie, p-please..." You were in denial, you knew that. "I'm really sorry, Mn...Um, your brother is on his way to her home and I'm gonna meet him there to discuss the next course of action. Will you be there?"

You were silent, staring at Chan who was standing a couple feet away from you, panting before he closes his mouth and tilts his head in the cute way you've secretly grew to find adorable. "I-I'm w-with her...M-My hybrid, at the moment I..." A choked sobs escapes you and before your eyes squeeze shut and your tears fall you see Chan immediately take off towards you. "Okay, Mn. Take your time, yeah? Your brother can probably handle everything so just...take care of yourself and Chan, yeah?" You let out a weak noise before she says goodbye and hangs up.

You sob, dropping your arm and your phone as you curl in on yourself. Chan whimpers and paws at your shoe before you hear the telltale sign that he's shifting. "Mnie?" You lift your arms, hands on your face as you crying into your palms. "Sh-She's gone, Ch-Chan...M-Mom, is g-go-" A heavy sob stops you from saying it again as you drop your hands.

Chan was sitting on his knees, arms folding onto each other on his thighs in front of his stomach, leaning forward to look at you with that precious head tilt, his left ear atop his head folding over and the right falling to it's natural shape. "Channie..." You reach for him and he immediately moves to lay his head on your lap so you can play with his hair and ears. Chan is ecstatic, trying to stop his tail from wagging cause you haven't asked to pet him or doing it willingly in years, not since you were younger.

You brush your hands through his hair before patting his head. "I-I need..." He sits up, waiting for you to finish. "I-I'm sorry that I-I haven't b-been th-the nicest to you as I got older." "It's okay." "Can...Can you hold me? L-Like mom use to have you do when I was a kid?" "Yeah- I-I mean yes, yes I can." A small smile graces you lips when you notice his excitement.

You move your legs over his, curling into him as he wraps his arms around you and buries his face in your shoulder. You hold back a small laugh when you can hear his tail brushing the dirt around behind him.

"So where will I go? I-I understand if you...leave me somewhere..." His tail stops and he seems to unknowingly hold you tighter, not wanting to hear you give him up. "You'll stay with me..." "Really?" "Yeah. I'm not gonna give you up. My mom found you and raised you. I know I wasn't the nicest to you as I grew older...but I'm gonna change."

You lean back slightly to look up at the hybrid. "Are you okay with staying with me?" "I am! I definitely am I just never got to ask your mom something." "What is it?" "Well...Her neighbors dog hybrid is being abused...He's always outside and I tend to jump the fence to lay with him and keep him warm...Can we take him in as well?" "Uh...sure. We could report the neighbors too. What's his name?" "Seungmin. He's an adorable retriever hybrid, he even told me he has a wild fox friend that comes to visit him in his backyard." "That's sweet. Only this puppy though, yeah? Mom said she was gonna give me the house and there's not a lot of room."

You lay back on his shoulder and look out to the field. "Yeah...Just Seungmin."

Five months later, you managed to be looking after Chan, Seungmin, his fox friend Jeongin, your old co-workers Ferret Hyunjin, the neighborhood stray cat Felix and his Squirrel friend Jisung, a bunny named Minho that Chan found on his run, and a stray "scary" Pitbull hybrid named Changbin who was the cutest sweetheart you've taken in once he learned that you really were nice and weren't gonna hurt him.

[beanghostprincess]

Look, I love Luffy as much as the next guy and he is my most specialest boy ever, I love him to death but if there is one thing about him that I had to point out is that...

He only bathes once a week, rigth? So that means that guy's hair is just... not to be offensive but to put in the nicest way I can possibly show its probably the most uncombed, unkept, unfed,  undernourished looking mass of strings that's as dry as a desert in july and if I were to put a hand throught it I would feel that its pretty much the same consistence as the straw his hat is made of, if not worse. Or its covered in enough grease and body liquids we don't even know about that you could harvest it from his head and use it to lubricate an entire wasteland. And this is me being nice.

Its all the results of the possibly the worst higene in the east blue and doing the most random ass things that get you covered in dirt and debris every day, people don't talk enough about how much sand and seawater can damage your hair and he lives in it. Like at least Zoro, who also bathes once a week if not less, has very short hair so the damage isn't as noticeable and its already cut and regrown in a few weeks.

I bet Sanji cries when he sees it, like genuine feeling of sadness, pity and grief because he takes great care of his own and meanwhile Luffy is just tumbling in the salted sea water, letting the sun dry him afterwards and calling it a day. If Sanji ever tried to fix it he would need at least 20 bottles of 12 different products, work on it for 4 hours for a mediocre result and it doesn't matter cause Luffy is gonna fuck it up in the following millisecond by bathing in corrosive liquids for fun or something.

And the worst part is that he doesn't care about the absolute dumptruck on his head, but honestely I'll just let him be, he has worse things to worry about. And maybe his terrible hygene is actually the source of his strenght.

I'm always saying I'd be friends with Luffy but I am a liar. I wouldn't be able to be near him. I'd die. I love my boy but it's so gross I would go Sanji mode and start crying. I think Nami and Sanji just,, Beg him to let them fix his hair. It has to be so,,, Greasy. Ughhh. I don't like thinking about it and now I want to take a shower suddenly.

[an-angel-in-the-garden]

Mayuri, unohana, urahara and szayel (separately) but this time the opposite with a reader who has very low pain tolerance and shakes like a leaf when has to get any medical procedures done? fluff and comfort pls 🩶

I love all these people so much! I'm excited to write for Unohana thanks for that chance. It's really funny because this is so understandable as someone who can't handle any level of pain and is a little terrified of doctor visits~ TW Slight medical talk and mentions of fear, crying, and fighting.

Mayuri

Not the nicest man about this kind of stuff but not the worst

He isn't really a doctor so unless it's simple he often won't bother with helping you through any medical needs but he does notice right away that it scares you

Mayuri is not a very kind man, in fact he's kind of a monster but you do have a special place in his heart so torturing you is not high on his list

At first he's going to mock you about it, I mean really you picked him of all people to date yet medical things scare you?

On top of that handling pain is just something needed when it comes to his squad or him in general

However the first time he gets to see the full extent of your fear he changes his tune….a little

Though Mayuri does like making you suffer a little such intense fear pulls at his heart in an unexpected way that he finds unpleasant

From then on he'll do his best to not put you in the situation

Don't get the wrong idea he still won't be all sweet about it but he tries to make it easier on you

Keeping some experiments out of site or sending Nemu off to keep you busy while he works on more unsavory things

Mayuri see's your limits and won't push them too much on something like this

He wants you to get more used to it, to be able to see his work and either like it or at least put up with it however he likes you too much to really want you to hurt or be frightened of him anymore

Unohana

She's so understanding of your fear and really will try to help in anyway

She the Captain of the 4th Division and the best healer the soul society has and thanks to that she's seen many people like you

It's not really a problem in her eyes yes it can making treating you a bit tough but she can see why you might find these things so scary

There's nothing wrong with it and she'd be very happy if you're honest about it with her

From then on she makes it a rule to the whole 4th division that unless its an emergency she'll be the only on treating you

This is for her sake just as much as it is for you

Unohana worries about you so much after learning just how scary this stuff is for you so it comforts her to be there to help

SO MUCH love and care from Unohana and anyone who tries to mock you for being scared will find she is also very protective of you

They won't make the same mistake twice

She can make sure all treats are as quick and painless as possible for you

Of course each time you need a checkup or something she praises you for managing to get through it even if you're shaking like a leaf or crying by the end she's just glad you trusted her enough to handle it

It's a slow thing but never will she want to push you on becoming less afraid, fear is natural and she accepts that, all she wants to do is help in any way she can

Urahara

Nice but teasing, he can get why your scared but that doesn't mean he's not gonna poke fun at you.....at first

Nice but teasing, he can get why your scared but that doesn't mean he's not gonna poke fun at you…..at first

Urahara has this thing about accidentally going to far at times and that's likely going to happen here

It really wasn't meant to be anything big, he just wanted to mess around it's not like he really minds that your afraid of this

Everyone fears something even if they won't admit it and that includes himself but he likes rilling you up

Urahara hadn't realized just how bad it would end up being for you and honestly himself

Truly there's not much more Urahara hates then seeing you genuinely afraid or panicked but he didn't think anything like that would happen when he brought you to his lab to see his things

He's not a doctor but he does have many medical like things and some treatments are well within his capabilities, he thought it would be okay

You might freak out a bit or get angry but instead it's much worse and Urahara feels his heart break, he's rushing to your side to comfort you and gets you away from everything asap

Never again. That was his only thought and he sticks to it

Yes he still teases at times but it's never extreme and if your having a hard time he'll be there to help no matter what it takes

Your comfort and happiness is a top priority and he will not allow you to be in a place of fear if there's another option

This man will turn the word upside down to help you in the best and easiest way possible just so you don't need medical help

Szayelaporro

Just the worst with this he's such a menace and if you were scared before he might just make it worse

Okay he will totally make it worse but he does try to fix it later maybe a little too late but for Szayelaporro that still means something

He's not a kind man in anyway and given his desire for perfection fear, especially a fear of doctors or medical procedures is a hindrance to him

The moment he learns of this fear he's already pushing you to get used to dealing with that stuff, he's a doctor…kind of and he needs you to be willing to work with him

It takes one major fight for him to change somewhat

Like normal he's talking about his work, maybe even demanding you come see it when the fight starts

He's mocking and rude while you're upset and hurt by his actions, not to mention terrified of what he might do to you or others and by the end it's just the sound of your sobbing while he stands in silence

Emotion is still new to Szayelaporro and caring for another person still feels foreign but he wouldn't be with you if that soft spot didn't exist

Seeing such fear and hurt all caused by him no longer makes him laugh insead it leaves him feeling empty, he doesn't like that

Comforting you isn't something he knows how to do but he will try and once you calm down he apologizes for his actions

It's not the sweetest but it's a start and he does learn from it

Anytime medical treatment is needed he'll takes you to a room full of comforting things while you deal with the examine and what comes after

No longer does he demand you come to his lab or that you let you him experiment on you instead he just talks about some of his in simple light detail

Szayelaporro wants you to share his views of perfection but he doesn't want you to be scared of him or come to hate him so if that idea has to wait then so be it, for you and you alone he will wait

And there we go, all done! This was fun and I hope you enjoyed it. I was wondering how much detail to put in but I found that it was much easier to just write without too much planning and I hope it doesn't seem too sloppy? Thanks again for requesting and reading! Have a lovely day or night. ~ Lilly

[prentissluvr]

OKAY. it’s morning. it’s time to dissect. clear mind (4 hours of sleep. it’s okay.)

TO START. i love all of your fics ESP those that really have an overarching story, but these smaller ones you do really have my heart because they’re so comforting to read. like yeah!! nothing bad is ever going to happen!! wdym?? i’m just sitting in a stolen car with sam winchester rn, nothing bad ever happens!!

i also love LOVED the casual type of description style you went with with this chapter. your writings are always a meal, and i love angst and stuff you’re gonna get me crying with, but the occasional strictly fluff, mutual pining work is so nice to read. like you’ve got me BLUSHING at work reading this a second time to write this.

“”thanks,” you mumble, trying to sound as casual as possible as you feel his strong thighs under your own.” CAN WE TALK ABOUT THIS. RQ. LIKE. you got me SMILING HARDCORE AT MY PHONE. PUPILS ARE DILATED RN!!! hello. i’m freaking out??? this sentence is so incredibly simple but it speaks so much truth bc YES!! that’s what you do when you pine! like please. make marí’s sam winchester real and in love with me.

THIS TOO: “you’re not helping yourself. or maybe you are. you can’t really tell, because it’s sort of hard to breathe with his muscled forearm pressed up against your stomach.” this drove me insane, and not just bc it’s so INCREDIBLY SEXY AND HOT TO READ, but because of the internal monologue. i love first person because i feel like you connect with the internal monologue with the character, but i prefer second & third. now, having an internal monologue in second and third person, really just sets that precedent that’s gonna ruin every other writing for me. i love feeling this connection with the reader’s character by feeling their (very realistic) thoughts and feelings.

AND DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE FINAL PARAGRAPH. i always struggle with not making endings cheesy or too short, and you have the perfect balance. every single work of yours (in my opinion) ends with a perfect mix of poetry and prose to leave the reader satisfied, but also with an ability to control the narrative of the ending (in my opinion, sam and reader defo got together after. i don’t make the rules. that sexual tension needs to be relieved your honour!!!)

TL;DR, another amazing and brilliant work, marí! can’t wait to see what’s next 🧡

(P.S., also listened to guilty as sin? while reading this. took me to a whole other celestial dimension.)

oh grace you seriously are just too good to me IM CRYINGGGG I LOVE YOU SO BADDDD <333333

(feel you on the 4 hours of sleep!! i think i got exactly that much as well LMAO)

first of all, i'm just so grateful that you like all of my fics, no matter what kind. and i'm so so so grateful that you'd take all the time to tell me all of this!!! it really makes me feel so happy and good about myself and make me wanna keep writing more and more and more!!! so thank you so so so much for that.

and you're so right!! nothing bad ever happens!! ever ever ever!! heh...

and honestly i ended up liking the angst and all that, but fluff is where my heart lies!! it's my happy place i think, and it's what i've always been most comfortable writing tbh. so i'm really glad that you enjoy my pure fluff works like this one hehe (good luck at work!! don't get in trouble for sending asks and being the nicest human to me on earth ilysm)

it makes me crazy happy that something so simple would speak volumes to you like this!! it means so much!!! it makes me feel like "omg! it's working! the words thingy that i've been trying to do! it's working! yayayayay!!!" and i'm so so glad you enjoy the way i use second person in my writing and that it successfully connects you to the reader's character!!! <33

and i can't tell you how flattered i am that you think my endings are nice and balanced! honestly, i worry about them being a little cheesy too, but i actually kinda like cheesy endings so i try not to sweat it LOL but i'm seriously screaming at how you described how you feel about my endings with the prose and poetry, and you saying that i have a control over the narrative that you can actually sense is just amazing to me. thank you so so so dearly <33 (and i agree!! they absolutely got together, especially because dean leaves them alone in the motel room and you're forced to acknowledge your feelings because you might actually implode if you don't HAHA)

not the tl;dr HAHA I READ IT ALL FIVE TIMES OVER AGAIN !!! thank you so so so so so so so much for your kind words and support ilysm <3

(oH MY GOD I CAN ONLY IMAGINE HOW GOOD THAT SONG WOULD BE TO LISTEN WITH THIS FIC WOWOW)

[yumester]

sending this back to sender. i need a full dissertation on pAInter STAT

Oh, look it's the silly mutual once again in my ask box, wailing and screaming like a drenched kitten or that one generic male character from the hit game going through the worst experience ever— (gets shot)

Anyway, here's my opinions on The p.AI.nter from the hit Roblox game.

You know the drill, putting a read more for my and everyone's safety.

Fucking character of all time, man. Not including Sebastian! We hate Sebastian in this house! 🗣

They made this shit in the lab and called it straight up cocaine for lore heads. And by lore heads I mean me homie!! /j

Gonna mainly go over each label but might go into detail later on so watch out.

Everyone but me is wrong about them <3: I mean this in the nicest way possible. Pressure fandom has already failed miserably at the characterization of Sebastian. We've seen it all, to people anime boyifing the hell out of his visage, to the literal creators having to ward people off by adding changes to the game's data by removing voice lines. Man is not your big monster hubby with a tortured soul. Okay, maybe he is a tortured soul, but more literal than that and less likely to cry on your shoulder or even give you the benefit of the doubt to hold you at arm's length. Anyway, I've seen some people babify the hell out of p.AI.nter as well, and it sucks. I'm sorry, but it's true. It is not your friend, guys. It just wants to paint.

they got done dirty but the creator/s: Okay IDK if you've even peered at the recent updates or uploads from the main creator, but it was shown that p.AI.nter will be updated to be killed at some point. I don't know if they already patched that through the other day because, for one, I haven't played the new update. And, two, I think anyone who tries to do so is a dumb bitch because all p.AI.nter does is trick the player with fake doors and has turrets in occasional rooms (yes, the turrets can be annoying at times but who cares). In my head, I feel like the entity adds some charm to the existing enemies you face during a play through. And removing those elements just feels like a waste. Technically speaking, you only get to The p.AI.nter's room in a certain percentage. Though I will say it makes sense in canon why you would be able to destroy it as Urbanshade as talked nonstop about removing any and all adversaries that get in its way, mainly Sebastian (Unfortunately and thankfully, in Sebastian's case, Sebastian can't be killed). But, I will also say, The p.AI.nter's document, however tragic that it is, kills me at the fact how they handled its owner's death. Like really? Accidentally killed with a rifle to the head because of some dumb guard, no less. If I was that sentient AI, I would no doubt feel endless dread and sorrow. Though, then again, The p.AI.nter is already had several moments of killing itself and been depressed while under Urbanshade's care.

ADOPTION PAPERS ADOPTION PAPERS FILING THE ADOPTION PAPERS: I won't bother writing a whole paragraph, so take this GIF of p.AI.nter as Edgar instead. <3

i am constantly going insane rotating them in my brain like a fork in a microwave: I can not overstate how much I love this little guy. I don't talk about it much nor articulate the words in discussing this freak like I wish I could. But The p.AI.nter is a character that resides in my head twenty-four, seven. Like I'm writing a fanfic about Sebastian right now—well before you sent this, but all I've been thinking about is this dumb AI. Its relationship with Sebastian. Its overall role in the story of the game and so forth.

the popular ships for this character suck: OKAY, OKAY! I know I reblog and sometimes like content of The p.AI.nter with Sebastian together, but that's mostly because I find ship art in general to be an endearing thing to look at from the views of a consumer. However, canon wise it just doesn't… click is all I'm going to say. I DO LOVE THEIR DYNAMIC, HOWEVER!

constantly listening to songs and mentally holding them up like a paint swatch: To be fair, I'm always listening to music, I'm a music junkie at heart and, brother, this shit is breakcore!

I WANT TO STUDY THEM LIKE A COCKROACH: All I'm saying is robotic characters growing sentience is a form of love in video game writing, baby. Also, like I loved The p.AI.nter even before friendly fire update. But y'know me, when it hit beta with its new voice and new face with the MS Paint program that has scratchy line art, circles for eyes and wobbly smile—I was ecstatic! I'm not an engineer or a computer nerd by any meanings, but I wouldn't give to be in Pressure for a spell to like look at inside and out in a non-sexual way of course LMAO.

whats wrong with them (affectionate): SO, SO MANY THINGS! MAINLY URBANSHADE </3

#LETTHEPAINTERPAINTFREELYCHALLENGE

not enough screen time: Maybe this is the me that “likes this character a normal amount” talking, but it makes me sad that The p.AI.nter doesn't say much when you visit its enclosure in heavy containment. Like, you visit Sebastian's shop, and he has like hundreds of dialogue, all of which include snide remarks and shouting at you. It's freaking Gianni I get people! But anyway, my man deserves a little more, thank you. <3

they've never done anything wrong in their life <3: Watch this video from 1:25 and 2:23 and tell me I'm wrong.

my opinions would be received by most fans as akin to hitting a wasps nest with a baseball bat: i shan't say...

This is the best character in the work: Discounting the most integral character, Sebastian fucking Shoelace, we have The p.AI.nter! Yippie!!! My blorbo, my absolute bestie, my man who hits me in the ass with high grade turret bullets to only die to the next room, my “locks me in a room with my wife as we discuss divorce papers and play 7 minutes in heaven” wingman. <3

Anyway, thanks for coming to my TedTalk!

[novelcain]

Hi, it’s me again, I had a couple of ideas, a couple are about possible bard reader, another is a musing for any reader, and the last is a general question.

1. Bards aren’t solely musicians, (from my dnd experience,) they also recite poems, ballads, and stories. So what if Reader tries to keep some of the more prone to boredom pilgrims by talking about various other myths and stories she might know? For example, she might’ve had an ancient Egypt or Greek mythology phase and still remembers a lot of those stories and when things are getting dull, she just goes like “Hey, wanna hear a funny story?” And then talk about Midas getting cursed with donkey ears. It manages to occupy the silence with something more interesting.

2. I’ve seen the Ruan being suggested as Reader’s instrument, but I wonder if anyone has considered the Xun. A xun is basically a small ceramic or wood instrument in the same family as the ocarina, but played slightly differently. They’re quite portable, and they could also make for a convenient “which one of these identical monkeys is Six Eared Macaque,” test. Nothing against the Ruan, just wanted to share. (Bonus: if the Reader likes the Zelda games, she could play some of those songs and most of them are either soothing or fun to dance to.)

2.5. Personally, I am an edgy girl, so if I chose to sing, it’d be like the early 2000s nu-metal songs from groups like Evanescence, Breaking Benjamin, Three Days Grace, and all of that other stuff, so that’d be embarrassing.

3. How are she and Tripitaka going to stay warm in the winter? There were points in the book where it was stated to be snowing or at least very cold, and idk if Guanyin would give them coats or if they’d have to get one of the other pilgrims to beg for a couple of used old coats. If Guanyin did give them some, it’d be neat to see like a feather cloak or something along those lines as feathers (down) are very good at insulating and keeping one warm.

4. Given all of the times when Tripitaka either punishes Monkey too severely and/or kicks him out, I can imagine the Six Eared Macaque arc being the one where reader genuinely loses her patience and slaps the monk across the face. She doesn’t really even say anything, just turns to leave and if they say anything about how they need her to guide them, “well, you can figure it out for yourself, because I’m done putting up with your ‘holier than thou’ bullshit.” Then goes to find Wukong. Depends on if you want the one she finds to be the real one, trying not to cry, or if she runs into his doppelgänger. (Suppose we’ll have to wait and see.)

Have a good Sunday, Skittle!

-🌺 Anon

Hello again~

ok soooo i'm gonna admit that at first I had no idea what you were talking about but then I remembered that one of my followers did fanart with their version of Reader using a Ruan and I just wanna say that isn't canon it was just someone's art. anything that i post about ittw on here should be considered specifically not canon just for fun. i also won't answer any questions about what will happen in the future of any of my fics or au's (i know i'm a meanie😋). you can find all my ask rules on my pinned post 😊 (tho i might update them soon)

also everything about ittw was set in stone before i even began writing. nothing will change the plot even if i find an idea that i like (there was one idea from someone's fanart that i liked and i was thinking about using since it wouldn't effect the plot [after getting their permission] but i won't be doing that now because i don't want anyone to think i'm playing favorites or have a bunch of people try to get me to add their ideas as well. i've already had a bunch of people try to do that and it really stresses me out cause it's hard to stay nice in those situations) because of that (and i mean this in the nicest way possible i promise i'm not trying to sound like a jerk) i won't be taking any suggestions for plots unless i specifically ask for them🤗

I hope you have a great Sunday too, 🌺 Anon!

[trashcatsnark]

Saw the ask about dahlia and the which seed sibling took her virginity and now I'm obsessed I HAVE to know how each of them would react to being Dahlia's first and also how Dahlia reacts to each of them pls i'm crying screaming throwing up

Hehehe, I'm just cackling to myself about the eagerness to just know how popping this Junior Deputy's cherry goes, thank you so much for asking!

This is gonna be long and triggering so, TW: noncon, violence, gross kink shit, and gross ideas about virginity

So, I think all the Seeds would take a level of pride in it, like all the Seeds are a certain level of gross. They're all going to have a certain level of idea that being her first means something more than it does, ya know- like that concept of being someone's first sexual partner meaning you have some sort of entitlement/ownership of that person and that its more special because no one else had them which stims entirely from insecurity and grossness. But thats the Seed siblings.

Joseph is canonically is intended to be the one who pops her cherry, for him I think there is the least amount of smugness but the most amount of entitlement. Like to him this is obviously how it's meant to be, his divine right, a gift from the lord to replace all that he has lost, reimbursement for his sacrifices- of course, he is meant to be her first and she is an 'unspoiled gift' (Gross Joe, Gross) And definitely of the mindset of cherishing that gift (just ignore the whole violence, drugging, non-conning, and violation- that's just gods will, ya know?)

But like as far as siblings to lose her virginity too- Joseph's probably one of the better options just because he's gonna take his god damn time. Like, Joseph fucks- we done knew, rn the idea of him like having her drugged with lowgrade bliss and brought to him is the idea sticking with me most. Like, so she's going to be more uhhh pliant than she would usually be, he's going to eat her out, finger her, make sure she's prepped. Definitely already referring to himself as her husband as he does it, also probably as the father and her as wife and 'my child' which yeah- he's like that ya know.

Definitely cums inside of her- not wasting a drop anywhere, he is trying to get her pregnant as soon as fucking possible.

Definitely private like in his little living quarters tucked away on his compound and candlelit, intimate vibes.

Faith is probably the second nicest with it, if she had gotten to be Dahlia's first. Definitely, would also have her drugged. Also, given her lack of peepis- lot of focus on eating pussy, fingers, but also definitely has a strap I imagine. Faith in my brain is a seasoned sapphic woman, she knows what to do and what to have on hand.

Definitely not as private- Faith is a 'fucks in a field of flowers' kind of woman. Groping and touching a dizzy drugged Dahlia, pulling her clothes off, touching her everywhere in broad daylight surrounded by bliss flowers. Taking care of her, massaging her (i imagine Faith giving Bliss Oil massages a lot)

Lots of compliments and praise, saying how pretty Dahlia is, how perfect she is- how it was always going to be this way and just think of how happy they'll be, think of the life they'll build together~

But I also imagine she's more smug and a little more selfish, for lack of a better word. IE- Faith is sitting on Dahlia's drugged fucking face and grinding until she gets off. Like she is not only gonna focus on Dahlia's pleasure, she is gonna get hers. She's also more smug, specifically around John- I imagine John is the one she has the most sibling like relationship with- like they pick on and bully each other. Definitely would brag about being her first and definitely uses being the only other woman as a smug point like- small jabs about how she knows a woman's body better, Dahlia needs a woman's touch~

John is so fucking smug and insufferable- both in general and about this. My plan is for him to actually develop feelings for Dahlia first, so that already grants him a certain level of entitlement and then learning he has to share was a nightmare.

I don't imagine John being particularly... soft. He's very reckless and impulsive, imo. Like he's the kind of guy who gets frustrated and flips shit, tries to drown her just because he's mad- he acts on his emotions. I could definitely see his as being more heat of the moment, struggling for something- she breaks free during another attempted confession- wrestling for a weapon, but then violence as it often does for John starts to blur that line and he wants more of her, because she's his and he wants her and he's entitled to her and in his own fucked up head this is love, pain is love, and hands start moving.

For him it's more greedy, desperate, taking what he wants and the fact he's her first, the fact she's never been anyone elses just cements more in his mind that she is his. Its more selfish and focused on him and taking and down the road he may regret not being more loving or gentle or romantic because a part of him wants to be those things- but in the moment he took what he wanted and he wanted her.

Definitely would feel like being her first makes her more his than anyone elses, already kind of feels that way regardless, that she was meant for him- the proof a life of suffering and atonement and constantly trying and failing to feel like he was enough was finally rewarded by being given her.

Jacob is by far the roughest and the least romantic about that shit. Like he always to me felt the most accutely ware that what they're doing is fucked up- he's just cool with doing fucked up things cause he thinks sometimes you gotta. Which makes him weirdly less redeemable but also like more understandable.

Deffo gets off on that same level of 'ownership' and it being a claim, but he's less like 'oh my wife gifted by god' and more just, 'this is mine i get to have it because I'm able to take it, fuck you'

He wants to make her feel owned, like a tool- like she belongs to him.I could see him doing it front of the cages, in front of other prisoners, Pratt, chosen, cultists- its not meant to be soft or kind, he's proving who she belongs to and humiliation can be a good... corrective tool in his mind.

Brutal, rough, in the mud- barely any foreplay, (this is disciplinary sex goddamn it), worst candidate to take her virginity or best depending on your vibe Deffo no drugging like Joe and Faith since he wants her to be very fucking aware and frankly wants her to fight him a bit, wants her to feel how fucking helpless she is.

Definitely smug and proud of it, never lets her forget who her first was- also never lets John forget when he's being particularly annoying.

As far as Dahl's reactions to each one. Regardless, there's that level of violation and trauma. She tries to downplay it, of course they'd do that- they do fucked up things, just another thing to a long list. Compartmentalize, try to ignore how much she's struggling because everyone is. Jacob would be the most visceral for her and feel the most brutalized after because- Jacob. But in a weird way, I think mentally she'd almost prefer that because it'd be less... confusing. Like with Jacob there is no reverence or insistence that it's more, he doesn't muddy the waters so much (untill he does), either way her first time will be very... memorable.

[antlerquccn]

sentence starter from halestorm's album halestorm. change to fit as you see needed. potentially nsfw themes.

I'm in love with somebody, found someone who completes me

I'm in love with somebody, and it's not you

See these lips are all done talkin' to you

I don't mean to bruise your ego

Hope you understand, it's been a long time coming

I'm in love with somebody

Found someone who completes me

I know who you think you are

I've got someone who has raised the bar

I'll show you the door, no hard feelings

You've probably never been shot down before

I'll try and make it easier

You don't know that I know, you watch me every night

I get off on you getting off on me

There's so much left unspoken between the two of us

It's so much more exciting to look when you can't touch

I know how to twist you to bring you to your knees

I bet you wish you had me back

It was you and me it seemed to last forever

The way you taste and I still remember the sounds we made

Did I make your dreams come true?

You're sitting in a corner wondering what you got into

Your tears don't mean a thing

You're just too perfect for my hands to hold

If you choose to stay, you'll throw it all away

And I just want to take your innocence

There's no such thing as fate

Only yourself to blame you never walked away

You're just too perfect for my hands to hold

And I just want to take your innocence

The promises were spoiled before they left your lips and...

I breathe you in again just to feel you

The sweet escape is always laced with a familiar taste of poison

I tell myself that you're no good for me

I wish you well, but desire never leaves

I breathe you in again just to feel you underneath my skin,

I don't wanna be saved

I don't wanna be sober

I don't wanna be saved, I don't wanna be sober

You made a mistake on the day that you met me 

I should've told you to leave cause I knew all the time you couldn't handle me

Can't help myself from hurting you and it's hurting me

When we both know that I'll never change

I wasn't always this way

Now I'm starting to think maybe you like it

I never was the kind of girl to trip and fall in love

I never was the kind to say enough is not enough

I never was the touchy feely, co-dependent kind

What were you expecting?

Are you kidding? You must be high

You must be high

I don't want your candy cause I don't like the taste

There never was a possibility I'd stick around

It never was my intention just to let you down

I never was the kind of girl that's good at playin' house

Are you kidding?

I'm trying to say this in the nicest way

It was just one kiss

It's a love/hate heartbreak

I thought boys don't cry

You're my perfect lie

I can't even think of one good reason

I can't even think of one good reason why I'm always thinking about leaving

I'm always thinking about leaving

We've been together for a few years now, and you know all my ins and outs

Everything's way too comfortable

From the moment I wake I plan my escape

I'm not scared 'cause I know there's something out there waiting for me

And I swear that I'll find it someday, just wait and see

I can't stay 'cause I need room to breathe

There's nothing left to say, better sorry than safe

Sometimes I wish you cheated on me

Sometimes I wish you cheated on me then leavin' here would be so easy

I know there's something out there waiting for me

I swear that I'll find it someday, just wait and see

Get on your knees and let the games begin

Before I do tell me, tell me what's in it for me?

Do my dirty work

My roses are in your hands

I need someone young, willing and able

You need someone old enough to know better

I want you to do my dirty work

You wrapped your arms around a murderer

I'm not the one you wanna give your heart to

This has got nothing to do with love

You wanted more than you could keep

You thought this was something else

Hey did you know you're makin' eyes with a murderer?

Hey did you know you're swappin' lies with a dirty girl?

You're gonna have to tell me where it hurts

I made you look but you never saw me comin'

Give it your best shot

Tell me where it hurts

Come on and give it to me

[whatsupwither]

#9 It.Got.Worse. :D

It's been a while but trust me when I say things didn't get better. After the whole Ian thing I actually didn't really stop talking with him. I just decided to stop starting our messages. ofc that didn't stop him. He decided to get things steamier again but this time I decided to just tell him how I feel about it. He was okay with it and I was hoping this would make him stop talking to me, well he still does for a while. I thought I should just let it be as it is. I had a meet up with an old childhood friend and decided to tell him about Ian. These were his exact words to me: "You Dumb Fucking Bitch... I'm sorry... But did you really lose your head because you're attracted to him?" I never wanted to scream before. Turns out you can actually screen record ig pictures and videos wihtout the other person finding out. He probably did and did everything I said he would. FUCK FUCK FUCKKKKK!!!!

That's when I decided to just kick him out of my life basically. I'm done with him. It doesn't help that my cat, has been with me for 11 years, is dying. I honestly would love to just call Ian and talk and vent but he can go fuck himself. I've been crying everyday now and it got to the point where people are telling me that I look very tired at practice.

Jeremy is back btw. turns out he is not away for good (which I kinda hope he will). We rolled here and then but yesterday, i was again just the two of us in the elevator and we have our usual banter and right before we go on our ways, he sort of egged on me for not being nice on the elevator, so I decided to say something nice and thought fuck it might as well tell him a bit of how I feel so I told him that I actually sometimes wanna kiss him. and I left immediately after HAHA. I regret saying it. I should've said somethign extra mean and tell him thats the nicest he's gonna get.

Well turns out its mutual because he dmed that night and told me he felt the same way. we continued talking for a bit and I told him about when he invited me over and how I wanted to kiss him then and we both sort of decided during our chat it was for the best we both dont try anything.

I'll be avoiding him for awhile now. and when we do meet, I'm definitely gonna pretend like nothing happen and just give him as much as a cold shoulder as I possibly can. It's not because I don't like him, its to keep things less awkward and more friendly ig. He had the audacity to mention how he'll break my heart and everything... cute. very cute. I'm attracted to him, sure, but I don't like him that way. I can't even imagine myself with him nor do I have the desire to have a future with him. I'm not afraid to say that yes, I wanna do more than kiss him, and I am not at all concerned about liking him but I am about being awkward right after or ruining what we already have. I don't think Im a casual relationship type of person either, I wouldn't feel comfortable moving forward like that so probably best to keep things the way it is. I do feel better now with where we are because we've talked and pretty much agreed its whats best.

Wish me luck.

[parabataisarah]

hi I made u dh thingy ily🌷🌹🌼🌺🌸✨💐🥀

AFJSFIARJSGNSFJSTJAFBAF BOM 🥺🥺🥺🥺 NOT ME HERE TEARY-EYED AT 2:30AM 🤧🥺🤧🥺🤧 god he's just so-- i'm just-- you just-- i'm gonna cry 😭 have a yongs you deserve it and more 😭🤧🥺

[mulletmitsuya]

Og Black Dragons Groupchat

Warnings: swearing, suggestive, mentions of sex, also shinwaka? (so if you don't like that then yeah)

Desc: Shinichiro re-evaluates his "dating" pool

Takeomi: and then we banged

Benkei: great 🙂

Wakasa: you're lying but ok

Takeomi: i'm not

Takeomi: i had sex

Takeomi: i'm very good at sex

Takeomi: she enjoyed it

Benkei: we believe you

Takeomi: nah cause i feel like you don't

Shinchiro: hey besties😁

Takeomi: yo

Takeomi: did you hear about the great sex i had

Wakasa: liar

Takeomi: ok virgin

Wakasa: do i look like a virgin?

Wakasa: i'm the hottest person here

Takeomi: debatable

Takeomi: i could snap you like a twig

Wakasa: ok black lungs having ass

Benkei: hi Shin

Benkei: what's up

Shinichiro: so you guys know how women aren't fond of me?

Wakasa: yes

Takeomi: yes

Benkei: yes

Shinichiro: wow guys

Shinichiro: you could have protested even a little bit

Benkei: but

Benkei: it's the truth

Takeomi: yeah why would we lie to you

Shinichiro: ok fine ig :(

Shinichiro: but i've come to a realisation!

Takeomi: the dumbest shit is about to come out of your mouth i just know it

Wakasa: remember Shin

Wakasa: think before you type

Shinichiro: man! you guys are mean

Shinichiro: but i still love you

Wakasa: ew

Benkei: 👍❤

Takeomi: lol gay

Shinichiro: that brings me to my next point actually!

Shinichiro: i think i'm gonna take a break from women rn

Wakasa: finally. very tired of you crying into my shoulder for hours straight

Wakasa: you're so ugly when you cry

Benkei: to focus on yourself? proud of you bro. you don't need anyone, just yourself💪

Shinichiro: no silly

Shinichiro: i'm think i'm gonna move on to men!

Wakasa: i-

Wakasa: i didn't expect that

Benkei: ...

Benkei: oh

Benkei: OH

Benkei: really?

Takeomi: HUH

Takeomi: THAT'S ILLEGAL

Shinichiro: i'm a gang leader 😕

Shinichiro: i do illegal stuff all the time. I can be gay

Wakasa: this is actually really funny

Wakasa: he gave up on the gender

Wakasa: wow

Wakasa: anyway

Wakasa: are there any dudes you're into?

Shinichiro: hmm

Shinichiro: kinda?

Benkei: we support you all the way Shin 😊

Shinichiro: oh my god

Shinichiro: Benkei are you flirting with me rn

Shinichiro: i mean

Shinichiro: if a relationship is what you want then who am i to say no

Takeomi: dude??

Wakasa: he barely did anything Shinchiro💀

Benkei: uhm

Benkei: well you see

Benkei: that's not exactly what i meant🙁

Shinichiro: haha lol i know that, i was joking haha lol

Wakasa: dude

Wakasa: how are you so pathetic?💀

Wakasa: i mean that in the nicest way possible i swear

Takeomi: you being nice is pushing someone in front of a truck because "ugly people shouldn't exist, i was helping him"

Wakasa: your just mad because it was you lol

Benkei: LETS ALL CALM DOWN

Benkei: STOP FIGHTING

Shinchiro: BRO U SCARED ME WHY DID U SCREAM ALL OF THE SUDDEN

Benkei: to get my message across

Wakasa: Benkei you've become a softie

Benkei: you too

Wakasa: no, i still brutalize people, just without your knowledge

Takeomi: liar

Shinichiro: no one's a wussy i think we're all very brave and very strong people

Takeomi: you are neither of those things

Benkei: stop

Benkei: he's brave

Wakasa: he was literally weeping when we first fought him

Wakasa: we were standing there like 🤨

Shinichiro: there was sand in my eyes i've told you multiple times now :/

Takeomi: no you're just a bitch boy

Wakasa: you talk too much for someone who's that ugly

Benkei: Omi isn't ugly

Benkei: why is your default personality being cruel

Wakasa: it's not being cruel i'm just being real, sorry you guys can't handle me

Takeomi: ok ice princess

Shinichiro: Takeomi isn't ugly guys

Shinchiro: would totally bang

Wakasa: ?

Takeomi: fr???

Takeomi: thanks Shin

Takeomi: that's why you my main homie

Wakasa: *homo

Takeomi: he didn't mean it in a gay way

Benkei: but...

Benkei: nevermind

Wakasa: a man saying he'd bang you isn't gay???

Takeomi: no?

Takeomi: not if it's a homie

Takeomi: right Shin?

Shinichiro: i mean

Shinichiro: i meant in a gay way yeah

Shinichiro: sorry bro

Benkei: there's nothing wrong with it Shin

Takeomi: you want me homosexualy???????

Wakasa: you're both so fucking stupid

Benkei: ok maybe today we should set Shin up on a blind date or something??

Benkei: it's evident he's getting desperate if he would bang Omi

Benkei: no offense

Takeomi: i'm offended😐

Benkei: BUT I SAID NO OFFENSE

Takeomi: IT MEANS NOTHING WHEN YOU LITERALLY SAY SOMETHING OFFENSIVE THOUGH???

Wakasa: setting him up on a blind date is a recipe for disaster

Wakasa: just do what you did with everyone else

Wakasa: why does there need to be a different approach?

Shinichiro: you're right

Wakasa: word

Shinichiro: Wakasa you're very handsome and i want to put your small, muscular body in my arms

Shinichiro: you smell really nice and i like your cynical smile

Shinichiro: and you're really mean but most of the time i enjoy it

Shinichiro: i think i'm in love with you

Shinichiro: will you go out with me?

Benkei: 😧

Wakasa: huh

Wakasa: r u srs..?

Wakasa: ...

Wakasa: ...

Wakasa: i have to go mop the ceiling

Wakasa: uh

Wakasa: yeah

*Wakasa has gone off line*

Takeomi: SHIN IS THAT HOW YOU FLIRT WITH PEOPLE????

Takeomi: LMAO AHAHAHA WHAT DID I JUST READ

Takeomi: THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING

Takeomi: YOU SHOULD BE UTTERLY HUMILIATED

Benkei: Shin, uhm, maybe don't be descriptive about what you wanna do with the person when you ask them out?

Benkei: it's ...😕

Benkei: BUT A FOR EFFORT!!

Shinichiro: i'm unlovable aren't i

Shinichiro: it's fine

Shinichiro: i'm gonba go to tbe psrk abs chiln

Shinichiro: al alone

Takeomi: r your tears blocking your vision💀

Shinichiro: no

Dm between Shin and Waka

Wakasa: you caught me off gaurd

Wakasa: we can go out if you want ig

Shinichiro: is this a prank :/

Wakasa: no

Wakasa: pick me up at 8

Shinichiro: oh

Shinichiro: REALLY????

Shinichiro: OK

Shinichiro: DOES THIS MEAN YOU LOVE ME BACK

Wakasa: don't push it

Shinichiro: :(

Wakasa: bro i like you calm down

Shinchiro: i'll take it!!

[veeveex3]

Songs that the Twisted Wonderland students would sing at Karaoke

Tags: crack, suggestive (?) (more like in a jokey way + some of the songs are mature / explicit), my uncreative ass song choices (I'm sorry lol)

AN: i just thought this would be funny and a nice break from the longer fics lol

Heartslabyul

Riddle:

First Love / Late Spring by Mitski

mainly due to that one part of the song (hopefully you know which one) and also because he just thinks the song hits a little too close to home

might cry a little and / or scream the lyrics

his form of therapy

Ace:

Never Gonna Give You Up by Rick Astley

he thinks he so funny that he just laughs half the time

doesn't even finish the song

no one laughs btw

deuce boos at him off the nonexistent stage

has one of those cane things too to drag him off

Duece:

Balls in your Jaws slowed + reverbed

this was not of his own choice

was gonna genuinely pick a song he liked but looked away from the little tablet thingy for a second and ace picked this instead

tries so hard not to throw the mic at him he's so embarrassed

Cater:

CPR by Cupcakke

mainly for shits and giggles

probably genuinely likes Cupcakke so he tries

probably laughs mainly cuz everyone is laughing though

Trey:

Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da by The Beatles

british (affectionate)

yeah I feel like trey's the type of guy to listen to older music

also seems like the type to be a nice singer

idia says something along the lines of "OMG IS THAT A JOJO'S REFERENCE??? POGGERS" when the title shows up

Savanaclaw

Leona:

As The World Caves In by Matt Maltese

ruggie forced him to do karaoke there's no way this man would do this of his free will /hj

he just picks this up at random

a good singer if he tries

sadly he doesn't but he's still nice to listen to

Ruggie:

Industry Baby Sus Remix

i just remembered that one time my friend showed me this and I thought ruggie would sing this as a joke

another one who thinks he's funny but doesn't get boo'd off

Jack:

We Will Rock You by Queen

another one who i feel like listens to older music

also i think this song sorta fits him

tries not to show how happy he is when everyone does the stomp stomp clap thing

Octavinelle

Azul:

Jiggle Jiggle by Duke & Jones and Louis Theroux

half ironically and half unironically

probably another one who didn't really wanna come but the tweels forced him to sing a song so he said "fuck it" and picked this mainly as a joke

probably sits down immediately after and starts doing work nerd lmao

Jade:

Camel by Camel by Sandy Marton

floyd probably picked this for him to see who would react and to laugh at them

another good singer so he just has fun while floyd's giggling in his seat

Floyd:

the home depot song

that's it

Scarabia

Kalim:

Levitating by Dua Lipa

idk this was just the first thing that popped in my mind

probably because the songs so upbeat and bubbly to me so it fits him

definitely gets other people to sing along (ESPECIALLY jamil)

also the supportive friend who hyped you up when you sing :>

Jamil:

Blinding Lights by The Weeknd

yet another one who was forced to be here

and another one who chose a song randomy

and another one who would be a great singer if he tried

would give more energy than leona though cuz he knows he can sing

probably makes that smug face after if people like it

Pomfiore

Vil:

Boyfriend by Dove Cameron

i don't really know much about vil's character other than that he's insecure and flashy (i mean this in the nicest way possible btw!)

so i hope this song fits??

yeah, but is probably moves around and dances while he sings

gives a whole ass performance

Rook:

Ave Maria by Franz Schubert

puts his entire heart and soul into this

trying way too damn hard for karaoke

doesn't really move as much as vil but still just seems extra, y'know

gives a little wink at the end

probably blows a kiss too dhsjsjsjsk

Epel

Take Me Home, Country Roads by John Denver

this is an act of defiance against vil

also probably one of the only few songs he knows well enough to sing

probably coughs at lot since he's trying to make himself sound deeper

same

Ignihyde

Idia:

Hikaru nara from Your Lie in April

fucking weeb lmao

now that I got that out of the way, idia only has two moods when he sings

mutters the words or screams the lyrics

if he sang normally, he'd sound really nice

Ortho:

The Disappearance of Hatsune Miku by Hatsune Miku

idia asks if ortho could sing this cuz he physically could

honestly, ortho would be happy singing anything

he's just here for a fun time, y'know

Diasomnia

Malleus:

Two Trucks by Lemon Demon

lilia said that if he sang this, people would enjoy it

sorta stiff cuz he's embarrassed but he's trying his best, alright

leona is losing his shit though someone needs to calm him down

Lilia:

Fingers In His Ass by Sans Undertale and Nagito Komaeda

grandpa's just trying to have fun, ok?

another one who encourages people to sing along but everyone is either laughing, complaining, or trying to calm everyone else down

Sebek:

Electric Love by Børns

let's just get it out of the way he is a bit too loud

not like, screaming loud but just like, a bit too loud

another one who tries too hard

immediately tries to get malleus' approval afterwards

he's fine with anyone praising him though but he'll never admit it

Silver:

rises the moon by Liana Flores

i also don't really know silver's character that much either other than that he's sleepy and that lilia adopted him

so yeah, probably keeps the tablet away from him at all costs

i mainly picked a low energy song that i think fits his voice and energy, y'know

Ramshackle

Grim:

MOOO! by Doja Cat

i just thought this would be funny

that's literally it

[unknownwriting]

Hiii I love your work!!

Could you please write law, ace and kidd with their S/O being TERRIFIED of needles and drawing blood? So much that law/ace/kidd have to hold them down bc they are kicking, screaming and crying so much. It can be Non-binary reader if you want.

I'm sorry if it's too much to ask for!! And thank you if you decide making this request<33

ѕυммary - requested ^^

cнaracтerѕ - Trafalgar Water D Law, Portgas d Ace, Eustass Kidd

warnιngѕ - implication of needles, mentions of blood, tiny suggestive material with Ace and Kidd, unedited too bc I’m lazy 💃🏼🤪

oĸoĸ ι don'т lιĸe ѕнoтѕ either so I can completely understand!! Also I so am not late with this request, it’s right on time, idk what y’all are talking about…anyways!!! I hope y’all are able to enjoy this!!

→ тraғalgar law

- um he’s a doctor so you know for a fact that this man is gonna make sure your all health and caught up on your shots. He knows that you hate then but tough shit Ya’know?

- now it’s not really allowed for Law to prescribe you medicine or do your check up due to his professions policy but that doesn’t mean he can’t. But when it comes down to it, Law has to leave it in other doctors hands

- however this is the only thing that law would refuse to let other people do. Even with Law being a doctor he still needs to see one some time so y’all have the same doctor and because of this Law is able to take the shots and other equipment with him

- very rarely do y’all need shot with how much Law keeps you health and all but even then every year or 2 y’all need to draw some blood for documentation purposes and this is the worst out of it all.

- when it comes to shot, Law is barely able keep you from passing out. He tries to make the most comforting environment for y’all, limiting only him in the room to not over whelm you

- luckily Law is soft handed meaning the shot doesn’t hurt but that still doesn’t take the fear away. So while you’re still crying and gasping for air, Law is able to keep his steady and strong grip on you to keep you from kicking or moving

- afterwards Law doesn’t leave you side until you’ve calmed down or tired yourself out. Y’all lay there with your head on his chest and his hand rubbing your back to calm you down. It’s really one of the sweetest thing he can do

- now getting a shot would be the easy one, drawing blood is the hardest one. While getting a shot something is getting put inside of out and with soft hands there would hardly be any pain or anything to worry about. But with blood, stuff is getting taken out of you and this, along with your crying and anxiety is not fun.

- because you work yourself up so much you end up getting light headed easily leading you to pass out. Law tries to take only a little blood at a time but he can’t just stop for and hour then continue. So he tried his best to draw the blood quickly yet slowly enough to try and keep your blood pressure down.

- of course it never works, so law just ends up taking all the blood he needs and let’s you pass out in the process, in the nicest way possible. With you out it much easier seeing how you won’t fight back anymore or stop your breath

- afterward, with you still passed out, he cleans you up and the mess. He washes the blood off your arms and washes the tears and snot from your face, then puts you in your favorite pjs and y’all spend the rest of the day in bed. You definitely need a break afterwards, with all the tension, and Law doesn’t leave your side through it all either

- he knows it can be hard, but he always knows it needs to be done, so to make it up for you he tries his best to heed to your calls to make you feel better

→ porтgaѕ d. ace

- god he just hates holding you down. The pain he sees you in and the way you rebel against it so much upsets him so much. He knows he can’t do anything about it but seeing you in that state just makes him so upset

- the only thing he can really do is just stand next to you and hold you. Everything you get a shot you always hold Ace’s hand and cry into his chest. You’ve been able to calm down your reactions for a while but that doesn’t mean you don’t stress yourself out

- Ace stays by you the whole time. And afterwards he doesn’t even make you walk. You don’t even leave the doctors seat before your on his back with you legs wrapped around him. His ends up doing everything after that too. Signing papers, setting up the next appointment, driving you home.

- which you end up falling asleep in the car and he carries you to y’all’s bed.

- he lets you sleep for as long as you need and the moment your up he’s by your side once again catering to everything you need.

- a bath, which he gives you a message to release some stress, of course avoiding your sore arm, making some food, putting on a movie, and once your finally able to calm down from the tension and what not he takes you out for ice cream.

- it’s something y’all always do after every doctor appointment whether you get a shot or not. Ace doesn’t like the doctors much either so it’s his way of giving both of y’all a treat. 

- but getting your blood drawn is the hardest of course. Y’all literally don’t even do it until the doctor is holding y’all both down. So y’all can be in pain together. So romantic.

- when this happens the doctor doesn’t let y’all leave until Ace is at least ok. Someone need to drive y’all home. And when this happens, even with all your snot and tears, Ace takes you to the closest ice cream place. Something as a treat and to get y’all’s blood sugar up.

- afterwards y’all do nothing. And I mean nothing. The moment y’all get home y’all hit the bed. Not even nothing to change your clothes. Ace even needs time to relax. But Ace happily wraps his arms around you to calm you down and tell you everything’s ok

- shots Ace can handle, but when it comes to drawing blood even Ace needs some time to calm down.

→ eυѕтaѕѕ ĸιdd

- lmaoo tf is a doctor

- kidds never heard of it.

- your the one who has the drag him to the doctors…(lmaoo Kidd is not anti-vac he’s just stupid)

- but Kidd always follows behind you surprisingly without complaining. Throughout the whole doctors visit. But the moment Kidd sees you freaking about a shot you had to get. He’s about the kill the doctor

- how can Kidd just stand there and watch you cry and panic and freak out and not do anything about it. It’s the doctors fault for giving you a shot in the first place and making it hurt

- with Kidd you’ve trained yourself to calm down quick so you can calm Kidd down or else the doctor’s gonna need a doctor. It something you’ve trained yourself to do pretty quickly. Looking at thKie out come of your shots and then the anger from Kidd, Kidd definitely out weights you

- its ok tho, Kidd feels really bad about it afterwards. He’s not too romantic but he does still care about you and feels like a jackass afterwards. He’s suppose to comfort you not make it a bigger deal, so in his own little, weird, boyish way He tries to make you feel better.

- lots of food, physcial touch (not on the arm with the shot of course), baths together, and of course Ice cream. Just like Ace, Kidd loves to get ice cream everything yall have a rough day. Of course, he always like his with a side of hard liquor. but you always stop him knowing that once he starts drinking he won’t stop

- that basically what happens every time. And Kidds very part out of it all is the bath of course. He loves just to lay there and relax with you. To the point where y’all would end up like human prunes.

- and the times where you will fall asleep on his chest is all the more reason to stay in the bath.

- when Kidd finally decides to get out of the bath, he’ll happily wrap you in a towel and carry you to be where y’all would fall asleep. Don’t worry, Kidd loves to take cold bath so y’all aren’t to hot when y’all get to bed. (He likes to warm up with your body heat)

- now when you get your blood drawn, you always end up passing out so luckily it’s the one time you don’t have to worry about Kidd getting angry. He’ll simply place your on his back, drive you back home and places you in bed, where he lays playing with your hair

- he’s just in awe with you terrified you get with needles. And the fact that you end up passing out when you get your blood drawn. You always seem so strong and yet seeing you like this just make him so upset.

- but it’s not like he’ll say it to your face. So for now, in his own ways. Making sure to treat you with care, making sure to hold you in his arms, and making sure you are able to relax after you get a shot

- it’s hard for Kidd to try and understand your pain but he’ll definitely try to make an effort to help you feel better

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Sex, My Ears, Crushes, and Old People (Chapter 9)

Book Title: Widowed Willow Word Count: 3,442 Warnings: Jeremy+Vickey(Mention), Abuse(mention), Jealous Amari, DO NOT REPOST MY CONTENT! YOU MAY REBLOG BUT DON'T REPOST! Let me know if you want to be tagged. Story Master List | Previous Part | Next Part

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It's been a couple of days since the founders' party, Amari sat in her room drawing with headphones on, in an attempt to clear away the thoughts that currently plagued her mind. The events of last night that plagued her mind caused her to press the pencil down harder.

The curly brunette seethed with anger, not able to comprehend that Damon had been hurting and using one of her best friends like an object. She couldn't believe Stefan allowed Damon near the blonde if he was abusive. She had seen the bite marks all over Caroline's body, the evidence was there.

The lead snapped causing her to let out a sigh as she pulled her earphones out and made her way into the kitchen and pulling herself onto the counter in a squat.

"Guys!" Elena whispered yelled causing the two to look at the brunette who gestured upstairs with her hands as she exclaimed, "are you aware of what's going on upstairs?"

Amari whined in disgust knowing she was talking about Jeremy and Vicki, "I slept in Jenna's room last night. There are things people should just not hear, and the sound of my brother's skin slapping my best friend is one of them."

Jenna had an amused smirk on her face at Amari's remark, Elena rolled her eyes at Amari's joke before turning her attention to her aunt and questioned, "And you have no complaints?"

"I mean," Jenna shrugged as she shook her head and replied, "He could be craftier about it, make an effort to sneak her in and out."

"I won't be home for dinner," Jenna smiled, turning away from the girls. Elena grinned, moving to stand in front of Amari as the two exchanged a look with smirks on their lips, "So you're actually going to do it"

"You're gonna go out with Logan" Amari stated, wiggling her eyebrows causing Jenna to roll her eyes at the girls, and correcting them, " I'm gonna show up and torture him, yes."

The two girls were chuckling at the remark, Jenna sent them a look and decided to change the subject, "Have you heard from Stefan?"

The brunette let out a small sigh at the mention of her sort-of boyfriend as she poured herself a bowl of cereal and informed, "Not since he left that very vague message three days ago. 'Hi, Elena. I, um, I have something I have to do. I'll, uh, explain In a few days"

Amari chuckled, looking down at her phone and reading the text she received. She glanced up at Elena, "Haven't you called him?" "Nope, not going to."

And you're okay with everything," Jenna questioned, glancing at Amari's giggle only to see her staring at her phone. Elena scoffed as she shook her head, "I'm not ok with any of it, but I'm not gonna cry about it. I was gonna write but then I thought 'What am I gonna write?'"

"I'm not gonna be one of those pathetic girls whose world stops spinning because of some guy."

"Gee thanks," Amari sighed, hopping off the counter and running back to her room and slamming it shut. Elena frowned, shoving her bowl down and chasing after, banging on the door. "Amari, I didn't mean you."

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Amari walked down the corridor of Mystic Falls High, throwing away a half-eaten granola bar. She held her book in one hand, pressed against her hip, and the other hand scratched her jaw. She remained oblivious to the attention of the teenagers, everyone's eyes on her. Amari was the kind of person people wanted to date but didn't know how to ask. If they did ask, they were rejected in the nicest way possible.

"Hey, baby" Amari smiled, stopping next to Bonnie and Elena, whose eyes were on Caroline talking with cheerleaders about a car wash fundraiser. Bonnie smiled, "Hey!"

Elena scoffed, shaking her head in disbelief as she turned to her friends, "Unbelievable, it's like nothing happened."

"She's in denial," Amari stated, Bonnie nodded her head in agreement as the three glanced at Caroline.

Stefan walked towards the three as he glanced between Amari and Elena before focusing his attention on the younger brunette. He greeted her with a smile, " Hey."

Amari scoffed, rolling her eyes and turning to Bonnie with a small smile, "I'm gonna check on Caroline, see you later."

She walked away, bumping into Stefan and almost knocking him off his feet. "Um, I have to go, too. I have somewhere else I have to be" Bonnie nodded her head as she turned around, leaving the couple on their own.

Elena sighed, watching Amari walk away to talk to Caroline. She occasionally glanced at Stefan, waiting for him to speak. He stared at her and apologized, "I'm so sorry, I haven't called."

"No worries, I'll live," Elena commented forcing a smile on her face and causing Stefan to sigh as he responded, " I was dealing with Damon" the doppelgänger raised her eyebrows as she questioned, "And did you?"

Stefan nodded his head as he stared at his sort-of girlfriend and assured her, '"Yes."

Elena couldn't help but let out a scoff of disbelief, tilting her, glancing towards Amari, and asked, "For four days?"

"You have every right to be upset with me, but can I explain it all to you, please?" Stefan remarked causing Elena to stay quiet for a moment as she hesitated before finally nodding her head and responding, "Sure. When?"

The youngest Salvatore furrowed his eyebrows slightly before he spoke up, "I gotta be home after school, but the Grill around 4 o'clock?"

Elena smiled slightly deciding to give him a chance to explain as she told him, "Okay"

"Stefan, where's Damon?" Caroline called out to the youngest Salvatore brother dragging Amari with her, "He has some serious apologizing to do."

Amari huffed at the blonde knowing why she would want to see him again after everything Damon had put her through. Stefan frowned exchanging a look with Elena before he softly told the Forbes girl, "He's gone, Caroline."

Caroline's face dropped at his words before shaking her head and curiously asking, "When's he coming back?"

"He's not coming back" Stefan stated with a shake of his head, " I'm sorry" he apologized before walking away from the three. Elena let out a sigh as she looked at her best friend with a sympathetic look on her face and assured the blonde, "This is a good thing, Caroline. He won't be able to hurt you anymore"

Caroline stayed silent for a moment before a small sigh escaped her lips as she muttered, "I know that."

Amari sent her a small smile before dragging her to class as the school bell rang. ────────────

After school ended, Elena and Amari both entered the Mystic Grill as the younger girl dragged Amari with her. She didn't want to be alone, just in case, Stefan doesn't show.

Amari rolled her eyes, annoyed at her friend. She was supposed to go help Caroline with the fundraising car wash, but Elena didn't give her any choice. A small grin appeared on the oldest girl's lips as she caught sight of Matt by the pool table, "Hey Tweedledum"

She and Elena stopped beside the blonde, he smiles at the two and responded with a small 'Hi', Elena smiled and glanced around the grill, "Um, have you seen Stefan at all?"

"Nope," Matt shook his head in response, "but if you guys want to kill some time, you can rack."

Elena let out a chuckle tilting her head to the side causing Matt to send them both a look as he commented, "We haven't played in forever, I'll let you break."

Amari grinned as she took the pool stick from Matt and warned, "I won't go easy on you."

"Don't expect anything less, Mari" Matt teased with a smirk on his lips, Elena let out a laugh glancing between her best friend and her ex-boyfriend as she watched them start playing pool.

They've been playing for quite a while when Amari suddenly brought up what happened this morning between Vicki and Jeremy, "I had to sleep with Jenna, I'll never be able to erase the sounds from my mind."

Matt couldn't help but let out a chuckle at them, Elena had a look of distaste on her face, "Vicki was all nonchalant like it's no big deal they're hooking up."

"I'm not gonna lie, your brother and my sister, that's weird" Matt admitted with a shake of his head. Elena and Amari send him knowing looks making Matt let a small smile appear on his lips.

Elena let out a sigh as her phone buzzed causing Matt to glance at her with a soft look as he questioned, " How late is he?"

Amari hummed as she sighed out, "Hitting the hour mark."

"Nothing's wrong, though. Which means I'm not talking boy problems with you" Elena remarked in discomfort. It was weird talking about Stefan to her ex-boyfriend, who isn't over her yet.

Matt smiled in amusement at the brunette as he sarcastically stated, " Good. I mean, it's not like we were ever best friends or anything."

Amari raised her eyebrows sending a sister a look causing her to sigh in defeat as she muttered, " Okay, what do you think of Stefan? Is he a good guy?"

"Why? What's he done?" Matt questioned looking between Elena and Amari in concern only for Elena to shake her head as she told him.

"No, he's just secretive. Like there's something he doesn't want me to know, which makes me wanna know."

Matt snorted in amusement glancing between the girls and teasingly said, "Like he's a serial killer and he keeps a clown suit in his trunk?"

"No," Amari wheezed, playfully shoving him away, "but what do we know about him, really?"

"He's great at football, a little bit of a loner, and as much as I hate saying it, he might be a nice guy." The Donovan boy admitted causing Elena to let out a sigh as she glanced between the two and asked, "Think I'm paranoid?"

Amari frowned as told her, "I think you should talk to him about it, honey." Matt nodded in agreement when suddenly, "Talk to who?"

Stefan appeared behind them causing all three of them to snap their heads towards him, Amari even letting out a shout, "I'm so sorry, I'm late."

"What happened?" Elena curiously questioned causing Stefan to tilt his head to the side as he explained, "I got held up"

"No shit," Amari deadpanned, exchanging a look with Elena before tilting her head at Stefan, "Is everything okay?"

"There's this thing with my uncle" Stefan informed causing Elena to let out a scoff as she snapped, "You couldn't call, send a text? Tell me you're gonna be an hour late."

Matt and Amari shared uncomfortable glances, the Donovan boy clearing his throat as she spoke up, "Well, he's here now so I'm gonna go."

Amari sent a reassuring smile to Elena before waving goodbye to Matt and quickly leaving the grill not wanting to get in the middle of whatever going on between the couple. ────────────

The following day, after school, Amari and Elena stand with Caroline in the parking lot listening to the blonde cheerleader talk about the rules for the fundraiser, "No friend discounts, no freebies, no pay-you-laters. We are not running a charity here"

Amari nods her head in fake seriousness and shouts, "Ma'am, no, ma'am!" Elena and Caroline giggled when Stefan suddenly appeared, "Hi," he greeted, smiling at the three girls.

"Hey," Elena replied with a smile turning around to face her boyfriend while Amari and Caroline exchange a disbelief look. The blonde girl crossed her arms over her chest with a scoff and resorted, " Um, the event is called sexy studs, you know?"

Amari nodded her head in agreement sending the couple a pointed look before being dragged away by Caroline as she strutted over towards the other cheerleaders. Stefan let out a chuckle as he raised his eyebrows at Elena and asked, "Did we just get scolded?"

"And judged, yeah," Elena added in with a giggle shaking her head at her friends' antics, "Those two together, are unstoppable."

Stefan laughed as he turned around to glance at Amari. The tall brunette had a smile on her face, chatting with some of the cheerleaders, and holding one in her lap. The Salvatore couldn't but smile in awe when he looked at her. She was going to be the death of him.

Amari made her way over to Bonnie who was washing a car with Matt. "Amari," The shorter dark-skinned girl whined, "you look so sexy." Bonnie teased, an amused look on her face.

"Yeah, yeah, thank Caroline. She came over last night and picked out my outfit, told me no friend of hers was gonna show up looking like a hobbit." Amari chuckled causing Bonnie to laugh as the two turned their attention to Matt who was eyeing Elena and Stefan who were kissing.

Bonnie held a sympathetic look on her face as Amari let out a scoff and told him, "None of that creepy ex-stalker shit."

Matt raised his eyebrows and told the girls, "I'm just observing"

"Sure you were" Bonnie teasingly commented with a nod when a red car pulled up causing her to turn around and call out.

" Tiki, this one's yours" the cheerleader groaned looking at the car unimpressed and broadly asked, "Why do I always get the homely ones?"

Amari's eyes widened as Tiki turned her attention to the boy and told him, "Just to be clear, your car's a POS. I mean, we can wash it, but it's still a POS"

"Why you gotta be so mean," Amari scoffed as she folded her arms across her chest.

"No, mean is uglying up the road with this piece of crap," Tiki responded bending down and reaching into the bucket of soapy water not noticing the glares she was receiving from Bonnie when suddenly the bucket of water exploded and soaked Tiki from head to toe.

Amari wheezed as she watched Tiki freak out while Bonnie's eyes widened in shock glancing at her friend. Matt rushed over to help Tiki as he handed her a towel and teasingly said, "Wet and Wild, Tik."

Bonnie smiled at Amari, giggling when she kissed her cheek. She watched her friend walk towards Stefan. Amari had a mischievous smile on her face as she skipped behind Stefan who was cleaning a car.

Quietly but quickly, she picked up the hose, turned it on, and sprayed him with it laughing loudly as he held his hands out trying to get away from the Taylor-Gilbert.

"You're dead!" Stefan yelled with a smile on his face snatching the hose from her and spraying her causing her to squeal loudly as she ran around the car only for him to grab her causing her to laugh. She huffed, rubbing at her eye, "Oh my god!"

"What," Stefan frowned, his hands still wrapped around her waist. She turns out of his arms and squats to search the ground. "I lost my contact lenses."

Stefan squats with her, catching his breath while searching for the lenses. He pauses, he's never seen lenses in her eyes. "Since when do you wear conta-"

"What are you two doing?!" Caroline seethed, annoyance on her face as she narrowed her eyes at the two and snapped, "This is a fundraiser for god sake, stop messing around!"

The blonde sent a look at them before stomping away causing Stefan and Amari to glance at one another before laughing loudly.

They grin at each other, only for their smiles to slowly fade from their faces seeing how close the two of them were to one another.

After calming down, the two worked on the car together when Amari's eyes landed on the youngest Salvatore ring, she warned him, "You're getting soap in that."

"Oh, it's fine" Stefan assured brushing off her warning as she made her way towards him grabbing his hand as she took a closer look at his ring, "Damon has one too, is there a story behind it?" She asked, still picking at the ring and playing with his fingers.

Stefan nodded his head as he glanced at the ring before looking up at Amari and informed, "It's the family crest from the Italian Renaissance."

Her eyes widened slightly in surprise and resorted, "The stone called lapis lazuli, right?"

"Why am I not surprised how you know this?" Stefan jokingly asked in awe and amazement at the curly brunette, she was incredibly smart and many doubted her intelligence. She shrugged her shoulders, before turning to grab her bag, "You should really take it off, I can put it in my bag" she suggested with a small smile.

Stefan immediately shook his head in response and assured her, "No, it's fine, really, thanks though."

Amari pulled a weird face as she stared at Stefan before grabbing his hand and snatching the ring off. Keeping her fingers laced with his she smiles at the noise of shock and complaint.

"It's ok, really." Before he could question her, Elena called out her name. She turned seeing Elena gesturing for her to help her at the stand. Amari dropped his hand, ignoring the hiss from Stefan and blindly slipping the ring back on his finger. She excused herself from Stefan as she made her way over towards Elena, passing Caroline who was heading towards the school for more towels.

The tall brunette took a seat next to her friend who was speaking to an elderly man, "That'll be $20."

The man handed over the money, a frown appeared on Elena's face as he seemed familiar. She gasped with a look of recognition on her face and said, "I saw you last night. You were talking to a friend of mine, at the grill."

"Well, I thought it was somebody I knew" the man mumbled in confusion, Amari frowned as she glanced between the two as Elena spoke up, "Stefan Salvatore."

"Nah, it can't be," The man let out a scoff of disbelief shaking his head as he exclaimed, "It's just my mind playing tricks on me."

Amari turned towards the man letting out a small sigh as she questioned, "Where do you think you've seen him?"

"When I first moved here, I stayed at the Salvatore boarding house. Stefan was just passing through to visit his uncle." The man began to explain as he stared at the two girls, "I mean, none of us knew he was even there until the attack."

Elena and Amari both furrowed their brows more confused than they already were as the younger brunette questioned, "Attack?" The man hummed glancing between the two girls and explained, "His uncle got killed, mauled by an animal in the woods."

Amari let out a small scoff as Elena asked, "His uncle Zach?" The man immediately shook his head and responded, " No, Joseph."

"I'm sorry, sir, I don't think we're familiar with the story" Elena stated as she stared at the man hoping to get more information from him causing the man to chuckle in amusement as he told them, "Oh, how could you? I mean, this happened years ago."

Amari frowned, about to ask him another question when Tiki suddenly appeared out of nowhere and said, " Grandpa, you gotta go, mom wants you home, okay?"

The man nodded his head turning to leave as Tiki turned to the girls, her attention drawn to Amari "He wasn't bugging you, was he? He's a little Alzheimer.'

"No, he was sweet" Amari answered as she stood up pulling Elena with her as they rushed to catch up with the elder man, "I'm sorry, are you sure that the man that you knew, his name was Stefan Salvatore?"

The man nodded his head without hesitation causing the twins to share a nervous look, "I remember his ring and his brother" he trailed off causing Elena's eyes to widen as she added in, " Damon?"

"Yeah, Stefan and Damon Salvatore," the man informed as Amari tilted her head to the side as she curiously asked, "When was this?" The man went silent for a moment trying to think back before letting out a sigh and saying, "it was early June 1953."

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58. 59. 70. 75. 92. 93. Here's a few more, in case you're bored! :P

Prompts: “I didn’t mean to love you so much.”, "I love you in every possible way." + “That’s a little melodramatic, don’t you think?” (which is from a different ask but my emo ass worked it in here, hope you don't mind me incorporating several prompts in one)

Cannot confirm or deny that I made myself cry with this.

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It's been two weeks since Ava left Vegas for L.A. to start a new writing gig at Deborah's won insistence. Deborah had encouraged her to take one of the many opportunities the success of their act had afforded her and Ava, reluctantly Deborah knows, had come back to California temporarily to cut her teeth on a new TV show.

Deborah knocks on the door in front of her, two short raps and presses her phone to her ear more firmly as she speaks to Ava on the other end of line, "You gonna answer that?"

"You heard that? Through the phone?" She can hear Ava stumbling towards the door through the wall, "I didn't order anything, I don't--"

The door swings open in front of her and she hangs up, pocketing her phone looking at Ava.

"Holy shit, D!" Ava practically lunges forward, wrapping her arms around her neck and holding her tight. It makes her heart feel full. God, she missed her. So much so that she hopped in the Rolls earlier and went for a drive in an attempt to cure her restlessness and ended up crossing state boarders.

Ava steps back out of her embrace and tugs her forward into her hotel room, no point kicking her tenant out for a few weeks.

Once they're inside and the door is quickly shut behind them, Ava kisses her desperately. It's brusing for a brief moment and then it softens, slow and sensual. They're both breathing deeper by the end of it and Ava breathlessly says, "Fuck, I missed you."

"I know you said I had to take this opportunity and it would be good for my career and it is, I know it is, it's been amazing." She can see the way Ava's mind is running a million miles an hour, her words barely able to keep with her stream of consciousness. "But I miss Barry and Cara, and I miss Kiki and playing blackjack and your endless supply of diet coke and your bed and waking up with you. I-- I even miss DJ."

Deborah chuckles. DJ and Ava have a genuine friendship but ever since they started being open about the change in their relationship DJ's ribbing had been even more grating than usual. Since deborah has made it clear that any leaks that compromised Ava and made her life more difficult were off the table, it seems to mean that they bore the full brunt of DJ's every passing throught about their relationship.

"Well DJ is definitely staying in Vegas, and I'm not about to up root Luna and Kiki but everything else I can manage."

"Are you for real? I thought you said--"

"I know what I said. I called Marcus on the drive here and told him to start looking at houses."

"You drove here?"

"I missed you too."

She can see the tears well in Ava's eyes. She hates that driving for a few hours might be the nicest thing anyone has ever done for her. She would give Ava the whole world if she could, anything to soothe the inevitable heartbreak Ava is signing up for by choosing this.

She kisses her softly, once, twice and then the kisses get deeper and more heated each time until Ava's tongue is swirling against hers. It still surprises her, the level of desire she feels when they're together. The complete lack of complacency and resignation she has about being intimate with her.

Deborah can't believe the way some things are coming full circle, and now she'll be back in L.A. with the person she loves more than anything and in a moment of raw honestly she says, “I didn’t mean to love you so much.”

“That’s a little melodramatic, don’t you think?”

"Ava." She scolds her gently. She feels safe here with Ava, secure. And she's asking Ava to meet her in her honestly. Be in this moment with her.

"I don't think anyone ever has. Loved me this much." She voice is tight Deborah can tell she's trying not to totally lose it. "It's nice."

"Oh sweetheart, I love you in every possible way."

[hyunsuks-beanie]

It'll Always Be You

Lee Felix × reader; angst, but with a fluffy ending; 2923 words; lovers to exes and back

A/N So Felix has me feeling all sorts of things today, bc of how good he looked during the performance. So here's a scenario for our Sunshine!

"Here's your order and have a nice day," you smile to the female customer in front of you, before handing a pack of cookies to her child. Once the leave, you let out a sigh and look at your best friend who's cleaning the counter next to you. "All done for today!," you exclaim, to which your friend looks up and smiles, before taking off and folding her apron. "So, what are your plans for tonight?," she asks, making you give her a knowing look. She to her eyes before saying, "How long are you gonna stay cooped up inside your house? The break up was two years ago for heaven's sake, you need to start living your life again." "Hey, I am living my life, it's just that, unlike you, I am not interested in going out and meeting new people every day. I meet enough strangers while working here, so there's no need to go clubbing daily," you shrug.

When all she does in reply is pout, you chuckle and say, "Okay, how about we go for a movie tomorrow? My treat." Her face lights up at that, and she gives you a tight hug before saying, "I really want to meet your ex once though, just so I can break his nose." You giggle "Oh he's dead and gone."

Oh, if only you knew.

Once you send your friend off, you start tidying up your little bakery up. This was the place that helped you get over your breakup, which had been messy to say the least. You had immersed yourself fully in your work, because you knew it was one thing that would never hurt you or break your trust.

You sigh lovingly at the memories of setting up and running your bakery, turning your back against the front door. And just as you are reminiscing you hear the door open, causing you to turn. The moment you do so, however, you regret it, because standing there, staring at you wide-eyed, is your ex, otherwise known as Stray Kids' Lee Felix. You both continue to stare at each other for a while, before he finally breaks the silence (and your trance) by whispering, "Y/N."

You clear your throat, and say, "I'm sorry, but we're closed for the day." He rushes to the and hurriedly replies, "Please, it's rather urgent. My friend Hyunjin is really craving some blueberry pie, and he refuses fo join practice before I bring him what he wants." "I told you, I'm sorry, but I can't help you today. You can come back tomorrow though," you say, not looking into his eyes. "Please Y/N, Chan hyung is getting really angry, he's gonna ground me along with Hyunjin," Felix reasons, and you find yourself giving in to his pleading eyes and pouty lips.

"Fine, wait a minute," you say, making him crack a smile. Boy have you missed that smile of his, you think, before mentally slapping yourself for still not being able to resist him, even though he broke your heart to pieces when he broke up with you over the phone two years ago, telling you that he could no longer do long distance with you being all the way in Australia. It wasn't the breakup that hurt you though, it was the fact that he had found someone better and closer to him, or so he said.

Little did you know, though, that the company had he had never really found anyone else, that he didn't want to find anyone else. The company had made him lie to you when they came to know he was secretly dating. He tried to put up a fight, but the company started threatening him about the group facing consequences. He knew you'd see right through him if he told you the truth, so he had to lie to you in order to make you hate him, just so you could move on in life. He meant well, but he never knew he hurt you so bad that you'd give up on dating and love altogether.

"Here you go," you say while handing him his parcel. He thanks you, while contemplating if he should make small talk. Mustering up the courage, he asks, "How have you been?", while looking down. "Fine," you reply, "Congrats on the comeback." His head snaps up at that, as he says, "I didn't know you knew I had a comeback," "It was all over the news, Felix. Stray Kids are really making it big," you swallow before adding, "Your partner must be really proud of you," complete with a fake smile plastered on your face.

Felix winces at your words, not knowing what to say. In the end, he settles with, "How long have you been running this bakery?" "Since about a month after we broke up." When he gives you a confused expression, you sigh and add, "I was kinda already about to move to Seoul when you told me that you had found someone else. I was gonna surprise you, but you ended up surprising me instead."

"Y/N, I-I never knew. I'm so sorry, I-," he says, but you cut him off. "I-I t-think you should leave," you say, with tears threatening to spill. "Let me explain, please. I swear I'll come clean, please, just give me a chance." "No Felix, I can't give you any chance, you blew it up when you hurt me so bad that it made scared of ever loving again. Please.....j-just go," you say, shutting your eyes close. Dejected, he turns around to leave, but not before saying, "I'm sorry," one more time. Once he leaves, you sink down to the floor, crying. "Why did you have to ruin me so bad?," You whisper.

You don't, however, notice that just outside the door, Felix too, is crying hysterically as he gets into his car.

Upon reaching the JYP building, Felix rushes to the washroom to try and dry his eyes and hide any signs that he's been crying. "I still love you. I never stopped, but gosh, why did I have to be such an idiot to let you go? And that too, in the worst way possible?," he says to his reflection in the mirror, thinking back to your broken expression. Slamming his fist against the sink, he curses at himself.

Once he's finally sobered up a little, Felix goes back to the practice room to give Hyunjin his pie. Though he has half a mind to just call in sick and go home and weep, he knows the group needs him. "Here you go, Hyun," he forces a smile onto his face when Hyunjin thanks him. Chan notices his slumped shoulders, but shrugs it off as tiredness. "Now that everyone is satisfied, can we get back to practice?," he asks. Once all the boys agree, rehearsals begin again, but Felix can't find it in himself to focus. He keeps making mistakes, which finally results in Chan stopping the music, grabbing his hand, and taking him out the practice room and to his studio.

"What is it, Lix? You've been distracted ever since you came back from the bakery. Come on, I know something is bothering you, it isn't like you to lose focus. Tell me what it is," Chan says, sternly but gently, his concern for the younger boy evident. "It's nothing, hyung. I'm just tired," Felix tries to evade the question, but Chan presses on. "I'm not buying that, and I'm not gonna have you distracted during performances or practices, either. I can't risk you injuring yourself or any of the boys, so I'm saying again. Spit. It. Out. Leader's orders."

Felix sighs, running a hand through his hair. After a pause, he finally says, "I saw Y/N today. The bakery, it is owned by them." Chan's eyes go wide at this, since he's the only one who knows the circumstances under which you both broke up, and is also the only one who knows about how much Felix regrets letting you go, in the worst possible way. "What happened? Were they....rude to you? Or did they do something?" "What? No hyung, they were nothing but nice to me. We made small talk, and they told me that they were planning to surprise me by moving to Seoul, when I broke up with them. I hurt them so bad that they are scared of ever loving again," Felix says, taking shaky breaths between sentences as tears welled up in his eyes again.

"I messed up so bad hyung, you know I still love them. They're the nicest, most perfect, most lovable person I've ever known, and I damaged them so badly, gosh I feel so guilty," he breaks down again, causing Chan to wrap his arms around him, giving him a shoulder to cry on. Once Felix calms down, Chan says, "You know what you have to do now, right?" "What do you mean?"

"You say you still love them. You say you're guilty. But instead of telling these things to me, you need to tell this to them. Apologize to them, tell them the whole story. Tell them there was never anyone else, and that it's always been them. You didn't fight for them back then, because you were worried for us. But you can fight for them now, because we got your back. Win them back, Lix. Make up for your mistake."

"B-but hyung, why would they ever want to take me back again? I've been nothing but a jerk to them." "Well, in that case, you can't blame them. But they deserve to at least know the truth. They deserve to know that your intentions were not wrong. If they choose to walk away after that, they will at least have had gotten closure. Who knows, it might help them muster the courage to go out and love again. You owe this to them, Lix."

Chan succeeded in knocking some sense into Felix, as the next day, the younger boy found himself in front of your bakery, preparing a long speech explaining why he did what he did to you. He's so engrossed in his thoughts that he doesn't notice your best friend walk out the bakery and stand next to him. "Uhm, are you okay?," she asks, surprising him. "O-oh, uh-uhm, yeah," says Felix, while noticing her uniform, that's identical to yours. "Do you work with Y/N?" "Yeah, we're friends and partners, and on most days, we work together. But they called in sick today, and told me they'd cover the evening shift. How do you know them though?"

To this, Felix finds himself at a loss for words, but he figures if he's gonna come clean to you, he needs an ally. And what better person than your best friend? So he takes down his mask slightly, making your friend gasp in response. "You Felix from Stray Kids! What are you doing here?" "I-I came here to meet Y/N. We broke up two years ago due to a mistake I made, but I need to explain things to them. They deserve to know the truth." He looks up to see your friend glaring at him, as she says, "That was you? You broke my best friend's heart? How could you? I'm not letting you anywhere near them, you jerk"

"Please, just give me 5 minutes, and I'll explain everything to you. Then you can decide if I deserve one more chance." When your friend doesn't say anything, Felix launches into his own version of things, explaining himself and his actions. Once he's done, your friend is still glaring at him, but he notices a smile tugging at her lips.

"You have been nothing but a complete and utter jerk to them. And honestly, you deserve to get your ass kicked by them. But I know that they still love you, and the way you are repenting what you did tells me that you love them too. So I give you my blessing. They'll be here in the evening at 6, be here before then." Felix hugs her super tight at that, with the biggest smile plastered on his face while thanking her. She adds, "But if you hurt them again, I swear I'm gonna murder you with my own two hands." "It won't come to that, I promise."

Felix arrives at the bakery at 10 minutes to six, and the moment he enters, your friend shoves him into the kitchen, asking him to stay there till you come. Once she leaves, he starts pacing up and down, raking his hand nervously through his hair. He tries to prepare what he is going to say, but gives up when he realizes that it would all go out the window when he sees you.

Meanwhile, the moment you step inside the bakery, your friend pretends to be busy setting stuff up on the counter, and asks you to bring in some things from the kitchen. Unassuming, you start walking towards the kitchen doors, when she notices your swollen eyes and exclaimed "Babe, have you been crying?" You muster up a fake smile and tell him that it's just you not feeling well, but unknown to you, Felix heard your friend, and guilt washes over him again. But he doesn't have time to wallow in it, as soon after, you step in.

The way your expression morphs into one of pure sadness breaks his heart into a million pieces, and when you say, "What more do you want from me?" while holding back tears, it takes everything in him to stop from falling to his knees and begging forgiveness. He tries to speak, but you hold up a finger, indicating you aren't finished. "Now that you've found me again, was it not enough for you to have me admit that what you did to me made me stop believing in love? Do you even want to rub it in my face by telling me how happy your are with your partner? If that is so, then please, just get lost, I'm begging you."

Tears are now streaming down your face, and Felix finds himself saying, "Just please. Let me explain. You deserve to know the truth and my feelings and intentions. If after that, you want me to leave, I swear, you will never have to see me again." You can't look at him, but when you don't reply, he says, "I promise that this is the real truth behind what I did. Please hear me out. I lied when I said I had found someone else. There is no 'someone else,' and there never will be one. The only person I've loved, the only person I still love, is you. It'll always be you."

"The company made me break up with you, and threatened me that the group will face consequences if I didn't do as they had asked. I that that if I outright told you the real reason, it would hurt you. And so, I decided to lie to you in order to make you hate me, even if it broke my heart. But never did I ever think that it would damage you so badly, and I know I've been stupid, but I can't help but ask for you to forgive me, and give me one last chance. I know I've been a total jerk to you, and even now, I'm being nothing but selfish, but I just want you to know that I still love you. I'll understand if you want nothing to do with me, and I'll walk away forever. But you deserved to get closure, and I hope that if you do choose to give up on me, you will now be able to love again, and trust again."

By the time he stops talking, the both of you are sobbing hard. You ask him, "Are you done?" When he nods, you say, "You say that you will walk away if I choose to give up on you. But do you really think I'll be able to give up on you? If I couldn't stop loving you even when you broke up with me in the cruelest way possible, what makes you think I'll stop loving you now that I know that you went through the same pain as me? You knew what the truth was, and you still had to hide it. I can only imagine how hurtful that must have been, Felix. I hate myself for believing your stupid lie, for ever doubting the love you had for me. I'm sorry, and I forgive you."

Felix looks up at you, surprised. It takes him some time to process your words, and when he does, he asks you, "What does that mean....for us?" To this, you shyly reply, "Well, I never stopped loving you, and if you didn't either, then should we give us another try?" Felix smiles the brightest he has in ages, as he slowly comes closer to you. Cupping your face, he wipes off your tears, as you proceed to do the same. "I promise I'll never let you go again," he says softly. You giggle and say, "You'd do well to keep that promise," before biting your lip.

"Is it okay if I kiss you?," he asks. You nod in response, causing him to gently place his lips on yours. And for the first time in a while, you feel like you're home.